Tuesday, November 10, 2009

All I have to do is wait a while... It is so great we do not own property and there is nothing to settle. We really do not need to talk to each other or see each other again. I really want a divorce now. I wish I was smart enough to sort it out all by myself. I am kind of loving my new found independence. It will sound awful but I feel like somebody took really big chains off me and now I just want to get going. Get out there live. Maybe he was right we have outgrown each other, but in my eyes, i have tried enough. I wonder how does one tell things like that to their parents? Hi dad, how are you today? I am getting divorced. My marriage is over. Yeah I know you were all ashamed of me marrying him anyway but I was not and I am not now. It was the right thing to do at the time even if it feels shitty now. I am slipping back into my darker self and i absolutely love it!
I do not know what is ending and what is beginning the lines are blured, but i am sure it will be fine in the end, i would not get more than i can handle ever. Life can not crush me because I love being alive too much.

2 comments:

Lorri said...

No, Carra, life can't crush you. You are too strong, to independent, too above it to let it crush you.

You will have your moments, believe me, I know from what I am saying. But, you are a survivor, and you will get through this, and feel good about getting through it.

I'm here, you know how to contact me via email. If you need to vent, I'm a good listener.

I leave tomorrow for Cali, but will be checking emails every day.

xoxoxo

Angela in Europe said...

Oh my, I am sorry to read this, but I agree with Lorri...life can't crush you!

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