Tuesday, November 10, 2009

All I have to do is wait a while... It is so great we do not own property and there is nothing to settle. We really do not need to talk to each other or see each other again. I really want a divorce now. I wish I was smart enough to sort it out all by myself. I am kind of loving my new found independence. It will sound awful but I feel like somebody took really big chains off me and now I just want to get going. Get out there live. Maybe he was right we have outgrown each other, but in my eyes, i have tried enough. I wonder how does one tell things like that to their parents? Hi dad, how are you today? I am getting divorced. My marriage is over. Yeah I know you were all ashamed of me marrying him anyway but I was not and I am not now. It was the right thing to do at the time even if it feels shitty now. I am slipping back into my darker self and i absolutely love it!
I do not know what is ending and what is beginning the lines are blured, but i am sure it will be fine in the end, i would not get more than i can handle ever. Life can not crush me because I love being alive too much.


Lorri said...

No, Carra, life can't crush you. You are too strong, to independent, too above it to let it crush you.

You will have your moments, believe me, I know from what I am saying. But, you are a survivor, and you will get through this, and feel good about getting through it.

I'm here, you know how to contact me via email. If you need to vent, I'm a good listener.

I leave tomorrow for Cali, but will be checking emails every day.


Angela in Europe said...

Oh my, I am sorry to read this, but I agree with Lorri...life can't crush you!

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