Due to a conversation with my husband last night about my yet undiscovered personality I started philosophising as always. Saying things like it is the purpose of every human to find their true personality. Then my husband argued me just to prove that most people just accept things for what they are, they don't want to know who they are and that they just want to full-fill their desires and live on.
Then my darling husband pointed out that whether I like it or not I am not like everyone else, and can be at certain times considered boring. He reminded me, of reading every page of my passport, analysing corn-flake box and reading encyclopaedia in my spare time.
He asked me to admit to myself that not only I am different, boring but also very analytical.
That drew me to take a philosopher's test today, as I always wondered what the true modern philosopher is! Is it me?
I know most of my writings here are pretty lame, but when I write notes for myself I seem to be more genuine. I "dig" into things and I try to see beyond the picture. But as soon as I start writing for other people to read I seem to become (as much as I dislike admitting this) artificial.
When I start thinking about my favourite books or paintings, they are never just simple and easy to accept. They demand care and time to examine and understand, then again I do tend to complicate the most simple things in my life, like that corn-flakes box mentioned before.
My life for the past few years, has been all about finding my true self, analysing myself, my environment and life until I give myself an enormous headache, just like those National Geographic programs - without giving (or getting) any answers. I suppose I'll just have to wait and see.
To be honest the philosopher's test just told me I am the village idiot, so to comfort myself I took the IQ test as well and got a pleasing result of 145. I know internet IQ tests are nowhere near accurate but that will do for now.
As for the quest to know whether I am a philosopher or not, I will simply have to wait and content myself with the lame text and the terrible style, until my English skills improve and bore everyone that bothers to talk to me, and maybe philosophise sometimes on the fridge-freezer, or say, what happened to the Mayas!
Here we go probably another artificial post.
1 comment:
Remember, perception is key. Your husband considers you different and occassionally boring based solely on his perception of things. Of course you are unique and that is a beautiful thing. Why would you want to be anything else?
Life is a constant journey in pursuit of self-awareness. There are no concrete answers that bring us to some great finality of realization. If there were, what would be the point of living beyond that realization? We evolve and your 20s are particularly turbulent in this journey. But don't resist who you are. Rely on your intuition and bravely embrace it.
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