I think I could be a better writer..

I started writing here not so long time ago, and as I realize now I haven't written anything sensible at all. Well I have a good excuse for that. I mentioned that I just finished my first ever book in Lithuanian. Just as I managed to send an e-mail to publishers, five minutes later I get a reply that they are not interested in publishing new books at the moment. They didn't even bother to read my "masterpiece" and I am a bit upset. I picked myself and my self-esteem already, but what about simple respect, I only asked them for their opinion! Not to publish it! They probably can't read either. So my mood wasn't that good for writing, and I refuse to write anymore crap (except this time)!
I started (already) writing something in English, though I don't feel like writing a whole big novel and short stories would do. I wish I had more degrees and I could (maybe) get a job in some little paper writing something, to have more real experiences before I go for a big work. But who is going to take me? Not English, Not English-mother tongue, Not English (some sort of) Graduate and no diploma! Is there a place in the world for me or will I spend the rest of my life in the kitchen? This thing is really frustrating, because I spent most of my life studying English, but I can not prove it, apart from saying something extraordinary or using a big word!
So I am feeling a bit down, getting ready to move to France, and trying to have a happy life and get published.. Does anyone want to give me a nice job? I don't want to work in Bar Tabac, I want to fulfill myself completely where my multi-lingual tongue would have something to do (and so would my head of course!).